What was I thinking?

The cold weather is being a downer. My skin is sucking all the moister out of the air that doesn't really have any. My hands are finally cracking today and I put lotion on pretty often. I finally had to put lotion on my face today. The cold bite just is miserable on all levels. It snowed again today. It was actually a really pretty snow but it's so dry!

I'm kind of pissed off at myself. I forgot how to do something in our web design quiz today and it wasn't in my notes, then while I was reading for next week, I remembered that I failed to put alt text in for the images. I think I did most everything else right or close to right. Hopefully I'm not the worst in the class. I know I wasn't the last one finished. Guess I'll find out next week.

I treated myself to my favorite meal for lunch, just for the heck of it. I got a lot of stuff done in Print so that was good. I also got some stuff done once Web Design was over. I went to the laundromat and spent like $15: two bedspreads, body pillow, 4 small loads of regular clothes. The lady was like, wow you have a lot of laundry. The bedding was starting to smell musty. They smell so much better now. The room smells better because of it too :).

Well I should go work on some stuff. I shouldn't have gotten online, this is the first time today, but now I want to stay warm and snuggled in the blankets. It's only 7:30pm though. Grrr... Iowa and the cold... what was I thinking? Yet I really like it here! Just make the edge go away and I'm good! :)

Oh and I realized or noticed no one reads my blog or visits it so I should just start writing everything I want instead of partly censoring myself.

Vegabonds attacked me today in the alley. They said they wanted my wallet and to shave one of my eyebrows off. I don't recall the reason but it had to do with aliens. I this this crazy stuff is why I stay inside so much. No, I didn't really get attacked by vegabonds. I didn't even get attacked by any sales people in the mall today. Yeah I needed a day of purchasing and self-absorption. That is one interesting word, self-absorption. Anyway, my web design partner is probably annoyed.

I'm bored with this post, I have so many things going through my head and no ambition to do them. So many things I should do and already not caring. Shit* That reminded me of something I forgot to pick up. Well tomorrow will be interesting. I want to go home and hang out with my dad some and laugh with my mom!

I need a light table, a flat screen tv, and a nintendo wii.... no i dont need the wii cuz i wouldnt get anything accomplished except half the levels and then i'd cheat code everything. I also need to grow 5 more inches up and lose 10 pounds. I'd still be 'overweight'. isn't that pathetic that society brings everything down in a woman's head. whatever

Politics Can Kiss my Ass and we need more nuclear stuff! :)

My obsession is starting to make me mad again. I need some more nuclear stuff to be happening in the world because I'm having a lack of imagery in that area when I search. I need the imagery to be in newspapers or magazines because that is how I'm going to transfer them to another sheet of paper. According to Professor Chen, the more porous the paper that has been printed on, the better for transfer. The glossy stuff does other things.

My fingers are blackened from newspaper clippings. I almost want to get some of them wet and blowdry them to see if they will yellow for another effect. I need a table to work on that fits in my living room. Once again the size of my place and the thin-ness of the walls are irking.

According to the paper today... that is The Des Moines Register, Iowans are ready for a woman or African American president. Uh.. we might be ready but don't forget about the other 51 states that have to decide too. At least most of the US is in agreement that President Bush is a douche. I don't use that term often. I prefer to use Dumb-Fuck and Dumb-Ass on a regular basis and use douche for something I really despise. The other word I don't use is the 'c' word but there is one person I would be happy to use it for and that's Hillary Clinton, cunt. She visited Iowa this week or something. Who gives a Goddamn? I don't even think she's on speaking terms with God. I think she's made enough deals with the Devil to stab God in the back and maybe she'll sit next to Lucifer on his thrown and spawn when she goes to hell. Ok I might be in a cranky mood. I didn't get as much accomplished today as I had planned. People pissed me off, time slipped by, I froze my ass off, and got about half of my shit finished. Don't get me wrong I had plenty of "good" things happen and a few completely random things. Like when I was out of the house, I went to Walgreens to get the newspaper. While I was there I parked next to one of those median/gardeny things with the light poles. Anyway, because of the ice and packed snow, I was able to drive right up on the curb. So, when I came outside, I realized this and saw that my rear right tire was suspended. It was pretty cool. I almost took a picture with my phone. Of course I didn't It was too cold to stand out there in my gouchos.

I'm getting antsy to have my own place... not apartment. Duplex would be ok because I'd have some space and only one wall to share, but I'd really rather have a house. For a split second, I was thinking about moving back home after graduation. I just don't know, gotta see what offers I have and what sweetness I produce this semester. I never bought that lottery ticket. I hate going to the gas stations in this neighborhood. I get panhandled or stares or at least it feels that way.
I purchased Dr. Strangelove special Edition today online. I think that's all I have to say for now. I'm dull I know!

Wait... No. "Dr. Strangelove" has not replaced any of my other favorite movies. I just remembered one of them and I love it more. "Finding Neverland"

This is my movie list all are about even no particular order:
Amelie
Finding Neverland
Dr. Strangelove
Cinema Paridiso
On the Beach
Holiday Inn

"How I learned to stop worrying and fall in love with the Atomic Bomb"

Wow it's so cold here and I went outside with gouchos on today. I haven't really warmed up since then and I must have turned the heater off on accident in my bedroom and the matress pad was off. Crap I am soo cold! Everything is starting to warm up though. Oh and get this... I didn't have hot water for part of the day. Whatever!

Today I've done a lot of TV watching with Adam and some stuff for graphic design and some same stuff for print. Cutting up newspapers. In a big after I'm warm, I'm going to test the Oil of Wintergreen transfer thing on some paper I have here. It's so cold I really don't want to go out again unless I really have to!

Last night Kristin came over to have a girls night for a while. It was fun, layed back. We made steaks and broccoli. We also watch Dr. Strangelove That's the first time either of us had seen it. I'm totally buying the special edition. I LOVED it and it's my new favorite movie.

"Demetri, Yes I hear you, can you hear me? You can hear me fine? Yes I can hear you fine. Yes it is good that we are hearing eachother fine. Yes, I agree with you it's good to be fine!.."

Words

Ever just have words get stuck in your head?
I have had the word Valenobos stuck in my head for like three days. Dunno what it means or if it's a Spanish or something. It could be a name like Mr. Galyganopis but I don't remember. Maybe it's the name of one of those guys that shows up in my dreams sometimes. Who knows. I knew a kid name Nick Geonokis. He was one of the biggest jerks I ever met and that was elementary school. Not a good way to start life. I'm gonna go read more about code and Hiroshima. Maybe I'll figure out what Valenobos means and I'll let everyone know.

Friday

I did get out of the house today which is sort of surprising. I just wasn't out for very long. I gave a friend a ride downtown. The auto place around 15th and Locust doesn't have the old cars in the show room anymore, anyone know what that's about? The building the radio stations are in is really boring too and then their's the crazy wall with the graffiti mural across from it. I still have yet gone into the public library's new building but it looks awesome every time I go downtown.

I wrote web code for a few hours earlier today. Talk about feeling like a true nerd and starting to feel like a hermit. The only people I've been hanging out with or see are Kristin, Adam, Drew, and Eve. I need to go into the print lab sometime this weekend to work on stuff. I also need to make sure Adam helps me get my paintings from that studio. He said he'd help on Sunday if he could.

I need a bigger apartment and a desk and windows that look at something more interesting than parking lot and the side of a sorority. I pretty much hate my apartment except for the fact it's mine and I dont have to live with anyone. I need more room though. It takes no time to trash this place and fricken forever to pick it up because I have no where to put anything. I've filled up all the space above the cabinets. I need to win the lottery. That'd be nice even with the taxes I wouldn't care I'd just like to get stuff caught up on better. I mean I'm on time on everything as far as I know. I just have those medical bills from November and credit cards I need to pay off. If only $10K would drop out of the sky as a gift. That'd take care of everything I think. All credit cards and my personal loan for the computer and probably the medical bills. All that would help my parents too. They wouldnt have to worry about me and my credit score and if I was making any money or not. They'd just worry if I had food and if I was goin' to class and if I am going to find a job. I think I'm gonna go down to the gas station tomorrow and get a scratch ticket. Anyway wish me luck and I'll try to think of something interesting to write about later. Like a good story or something.

What did you do today?

What have you done today? I've gone to class. Taken a nap. Watched two episodes of some sort of military xfiles. One episode was about Roswell New Mexico and the UFO 'crash' of 1947. The other episode was on the JFK assassination. Both rather interesting. I know the conspiracy behind the JFK thing better than the Roswell thing. I did learn that the 509th Airborne division was part of the military that was stationed in Roswell at the time of the siting and crash. That makes a difference to me because the 509th is the division that were the actual bombers of Hiroshima and Nagasaki. The book I've been reading is full of fascinating information and very much about the 509th out on Tinian Island in 44 and 45 when the tests were being performed and military base was being built out in the Pacific.

I also took like a crapload of pictures of my hands for a publication project and several pictures of the walls in my apartment. Unfortunately the walls here are very VERY textured and don't really represent the walls at the Drake University Anderson Gallery for which I wanted the photos to represent. Here is one of them: Kinda lame!.... K just kidding cuz the computer and internet aren't connecting for the upload. Oh well... but trust me it's textured and frustrating. Gotta go do some other stupid shit.

By the way, the movie "Pi" is not as good as I thought it was going to be and I got really bored half way through it!

Ibuprofen Information

This is a picture of my lone ibuprofen I have spoke of before. As far as I know he is still there awaiting pickup from me or anyone else who visits me. I doubt anyone would find him unless someone 'knew' to look. He is on the side of my bed no one cares to go on but me because well... it's 'my' side of the bed!
I'm still surprised he's there. Now he's like a secret stash and a little person in my mind and I would probably feel horrible if I 'took' him. I would maybe not feel horrible but I would feel some sort of loss to know he was not there.

Vivid thoughts

This is what I've been working on and I'll have a lot of editing and condensing to do but it's been fun. I switched my item to one of the post cards I found at the antique place. It's from Sunset Motel in Lakland Florida which is a suburb of Tampa I believe. This is what I have so far:

The identity of a man was uncovered in 1987 when a chain reaction was set forth by the simplest of acts. In 1969, a woman, Mary Thompson, and her family had just finished a 7 hour drie from Roswell, Georgia to the bright and sunny state of Florida. Mary, Vincent, her husband, Hank, her 14 yr old son, and Julie her 8 yr old daughter had decided around dinner that instead of driving for several more hours, the family would rest at the cozy Sunset Motel. Julie had found a flyer for the motel at the last pitstop and had insisted that they go 20 mles out of their way to stay.

Once at the Sunset Motel, Vincent checked the family in and Mary started helping the children organize their things in the car so they could help their father carry luggage into the motel room. Julie started immediately scrummaging through ther junk food wrappers and found her swimmiing goggles she had been wearing earlier during the ride. She had been pretending to be a mermaid and fighting off the treacherous Sea Weed Monster, also known as Hank.

Hank didn't realize he was a part of this 8 year old adventure until a piece of pre-chewed bubblegum got pushed up his right nostrel. Julie did this to defeat the Sea Weed monter by stopping his ability of shoot boogers full of sea weed out of his nose.

Julie then started didgging at her suitcase looking for her swimsuit. Mary started to scold her when she relized the pool at the Sunset Motel did look nice and Hank and Julie could go swim while Vincent and she unloaded the car and maybe got a few kisses and snuggles in without puking sounds and gagging sounds along with the words "ewe" screaming at them from behind. It had definately started being a difficult summer with both children in the annoying stages of their childhood with no place for Mary to really hide."

That's what I have so far. It's fun but getting really long I think. We'll see what I end up with for tomorrow. I'm excited anyway.

Still Frustrated.

I think I'm going to go create some random sentences with the stamp. Hopefully I have a new inked up ink pad. The creating new stories is crap. Everything that has to do with this is so sentimental and old lady like. Okay time to get my laundry... GRRRR!

Information on Superior

Okay, way stressed out. I'm looking forward to a smoothie. Does rum go with frozen fruit and yogurt? I doubt it mixes well with yogurt but I know for sure I want a smoothie and I think I'm going to need a little rum for a night cap. I need to stop drinking or I need to go drink more, lots more! Of course without drugs.

So I'm still trying to figure out what I'm going to write about for Graphic Design IV. This stamp set is difficult. There are so many beginnings but so many of them are dumb. I looked up the wikipedia definition of Superior because that is the brandname on the box that the set came in. I love the texture of the box and how worn everything is. When I scanned the stuff into the computer little flakes went everywhere because it's so brittle. I have a mess to clean up.

From Wikipedia.org:

Superior may refer to
superior (hierarchy), in a hierarchical structure of any kind, a superior is above a subordinate and closer to the apex
superior is the generic term, and in some cases the formal title, for the head of a monastery or other local unit of a religious order or congregation, e.g. abbot and prior, while a general superior and a provincial superior, exercise a supervisory role in a religious order or congregation viz. a territorial part of it (called ecclesiastical province)
Standard Superior, a German automobile brand built in the 1920s that may have been a forerunner of the Volkswagen Beetle
Superior Coach Company, a former manufacturer of school buses and that currently builds hearses
Superior (band), a progressive metal band from Germany
a party enjoying military superiority, the dominance of one military over another in any given conflict: see air superiority and command of the sea
"Superior" is commonly used as an adjective: see All pages beginning with "superior"
Superior is also used anatomically, meaning above or in a higher position on the body (when the body is in it's anatomical position). The head is the most superior part of the body.

[edit] Geographical locations
Lake Superior, the largest of the North American Great Lakes
Superior is also the name of several places in the United States of America:
Superior, Arizona
Superior, Colorado
Superior, Iowa
Superior Township, Chippewa County, Michigan
Superior Township, Washtenaw County, Michigan
Superior, Montana
Superior, Nebraska
Superior, Wisconsin, city
Superior (town), Wisconsin
Superior (village), Wisconsin
Superior, Wyoming
Some inhabitants of the Upper Peninsula of Michigan have proposed seceding from Michigan to form a new U.S. state called Superior (proposed state).

An old woman sits on her daughter's porch swing as her granddaughter brings her a random box that brings back memories.

A 27 year old moves into a furnished apartment and finds this old set in the false bottom of a drawer in a desk.

A tobacco store owner finds this box in a dark corner of his basement along with old cigar boxes. He starts to ask his cousins and other family members who the name that is already created in the box. His cousin Mario remembers the woman who Alfred is looking for.

Pub Design Project Ideas

First off I started sketching about 10 minutes ago after practically having an emotional argument with myself about how unstable I am. I skipped the rest of the glass of wine I was having and started brainstorming. I wish there were like 30 hours in a day and I had a high metabolism because I have so much I want to do and no time to really give any of it the time it deserves or the time I want to give it... sometimes I gotta sleep and eat and veg out.

If a white wall isn't really 'true' white, what color is it? Does the name of the color really make a difference in how the viewer perceives it? Does it make a difference in day-to-day life...(why I didn't use the word daily dunno)? Is "eggshell" that much better than "cream" and how do the guys know the difference if they pick up the wrong brush and it's so close? Do our printers, LCD screens, computer screens, TVs etc play tricks on us and say colors are different 'codes' or whatever when really they are the same thing? What the hell is the purpose of naming colors when it's possible we're all conditioned to SEE the same when really we see different? eg you see orange as orange (neither of us is colorblind in this hypothetical)... Okay you see orange, you've been told it's orange since you cold tell the difference between colors. Light reflects yada yada yada. I've been told the same thing but in 'reality' my orange is really green. I've been told and you've been told it's orange, yours might be a purple color... none of us really KNOW. Science tells us because of how light fragments and reflects off of crystals and whatever that that is what we see in the color spectrum ... but isnt that a condition? And back to colorblindness, aren't we ALL colorblind?

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At work on Thursday afternoon... ugh

I haven't come up with a new story for my rubber stamp ink set story. I lost interest. I started looking up images of nuclear explosions and video clips and such. It's so mezmorizing when I start doing it. The fact I'm getting any work done is a miracle too. I need to figure out how I want my images to work for my embossments for the independent study I'm doing with Professor Chen. I think I'm going to end up winging it on the explosions but I should really start looking up the patterns for the other series I'm going to be working on. I also need to go get that oil of wintergreen Professors Fender and Chen were discussing for transfering images. I'm so exhausted already. It's all good. I have a meeting at 8am then work at 3 tomorrow. AHHH. Ok better go...

Trial One for GD4 storyline

"Superior
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Ink and Rubber Stamp Kit

Congratulations! Echo through the phone as Dedra answers. She is unsure what the hell has just happened but a salesman from Toronto has started jabbering on the other end of the line. She waits until she can get a breath in and tells the man no thank you and hangs up. Bernard the salesman in Houston tells his customers he’s calling from Toronto to sound more important and unique. It was never his wish to be a salesman for his cousin Dave."

Trial one sucks! Any suggestions you crazies?

Post 2 jan 17.07

Fuck people. People are inherently evil I think. Obviously I've decided this a long time ago because those of you who actually know me know how I truly feel on the subject.
I hate boys/men/guys. None of the ones I get interested in do anything to keep me interested. I think I'm too much for all of them anyway. Ideally I would be a submissive little beauty queen and be a cookie cutter of men's dreams but alas, my parents raised me with a mind of my own and will to find something more than a toy to live the rest of my life with.

Oh, the screaming just started. I've been home approximately 5 minutes and the neighbor's baby is screaming. I love it. Really!

Now I've been sitting here uncomfortably for more minutes trying to say something but everything I want to says is emotional enough to make me cry so I'm going to keep it to myself for now.

01.16.07

K so we all know how this is supposed to get done. I'll prolly end up with more than 3 posts a week not by want but more because I have a soul that likes to talk. Not so much a soul as a little person that lives somewhere in my head who weighs approximately 6lbs. I'm estimating he/she weighs 6 lbs cuz the average human head is 8 and i think the skull would weigh around 2. 2lbs is more than you think. Ever pick up a pound o chocolate at the grocery store and noticed it's volume. It always surprises me! I find a lot of things surprising though. That is why little things amuse me and little things should amuse all. It sure as hell makes life more interesting.

Now take for example the ibuprofen that is on the floor next to my bed. It is a single tablet. I've seen it there several time... I'm going to guess 11, I could be way off. Out of that many times, I have only felt the need to move it, ie throw it away or take it, about 2 of those times. Yet for some strange reason, this lone ibuprofen lays on the floor next to the power surger and dust mites. It's not that I haven't had sore muscles or a headache. I take ibuprofen almost every day. I remember when 'he' fell out of my hand. It was after a bingeful night of rum and coke and almost puking but keeping composure. That's been 3 weeks I bet. A lot of headaches and other aches have happened since then... why does he not get wanted by me? Do I find him dirty? Not really, I'm the one that lives here and cleans here etc. I would find myself dirty if I found him so. I rather like to think myself very cluttered and slow in the cleaning process. Personal hygiene is always above those standards when vain.

By the way, if you have actually read this far into my new blog, Thanks. I find them therapeutic because no one really wants to HEAR someone ramble nor hear themself. Well... some people DO like to hear themselves talk! Why is themself not a word? WTF? And I think I'm going to write to Webster's Dictionary and tell them to add the word "orchuated". It's about time that is an official word. And I think allergetic should be a word too. It sounds like a real word and reminds me of pollen and bees and the movie "My Girl". Dunno bees go with that movie.

Okay I need to go get the electric blanket and thaw out while appropriately watching "ICE AGE: THE MELTDOWN" cute so far but I did lose interest already and well that's sad, it's a cartoon. The first one was already much better. Ciao.