clarity

I might have got a little closure today.

I got a response with no explanation but maybe there should not have been one... an explanation that is. Maybe I read too much into it. Anyway, things have been clarified. It is a difficult clarity and a little painful but se la vi.

On another note. I can't seem to get ahold of this boyfriend of mine. It's almost like being in high school. I'm not a fan. How do you plan dates or anything without contact? I'm very frustrated.

By the way, the latest issue of PRINT is pretty awesome! I want to be a graphic designer for movies. There are people who design the tile floors, the crazy wallpaper, the fake marble. I want to do that... it's like the sweetest job ever and perfect for me since I love pattern so much. This might be a new goal. I will have to do some serious research on it and I might have to go back to school for a textile design degree or something and meet famous people with lots of money and who like my designs :). That's not so difficult.

Speaking of my designs... I need to get back on this painting. The blue abyss is missing a mermaid and I've already got the next painting in my head.