like a fool

I feel like such a fool. I don't know if I'm just getting played or if something bad has happened or if I'm just dealing with a man I shouldn't be dealing with. It's starting to make me sick.

I'm not really sure... wait I know what happened. My guard was down for someone and I didn't have time to put it back up and then I got swept off my feet but now I'm getting swept aside and don't even know which direction.

Pretty much nothing I do tonight will be able to fix my mood and not being able to get a hold of someone is my biggest concern and bother in life. It annoys me more than scraping forks. It turns me into the worst kind of female.

One of the bad things is I have nothing to base any trust off of. Nothing to compare this situation to except another night that I couldn't get in touch.

I'm sure if this happened months ago or years ago I'd be reading this and be pissed or laughing at myself for my own stupidity. I should know better. I'm a strong woman with serious goals in life and I'm pretty dependable for my friends & limited family.

La familia and I are not on the best of terms at the moment so loyalties lie with Joey. He can't tell secrets. He can't gossip. He can't make me feel bad. He's a dog :). He's a very cute dog.
I heart him. Here is the latest picture of him and me. We took it either yesterday or the day before.
I like this one because he has his tongue movin' like the crazy kisser he is. I mean "Lickas". :)

Jeeze my eyes are scary. I look like I'm going on 30 and I have too many years before that. Yikes!!!