Oh Fuck Guys!

I am so sick of this shit.
I like you. I like you too. You're too needy. You're a jerk. You're so sweet. You do too much. You sleep a lot. You need to back off. I still like you. I need more space but I like you. I'm leaving you be so we can be friends. I'm not talking to you now. I'm mad at you. I'm sorry but I wasn't wrong. Me either. We're stubborn.

What the fuck? If I do A, you want me to do B, if I do B then it's time for C but u don't tell me so I do A again.... AHHH.

I decide I'm better than this shit. I do all this shit for everyone and because of my attitude about life and how 'cocky' I am people don't think I care. I CARE you sick sons of bitches. I can give and give and give but when someone gives they can only give so much and not receive jack shit in return.

In the last 6 months how many times has Jen gotten herself into a situation where she's been burned?
Let's see (and take into consideration not all relationships were at the same level) I'm the commone denomonator but guys still suck. And not all these guys are jerks at heart. Things just didn't work out for a couple and I really didn't get burned from them but I burnt my bridges on them so they count.
Jamie (got majorly burned)
Steve (vanished)
Mike (got burned)
Mike #2 (burnt my bridge)
Bryce (2nd time burnt my bridge)
Marcus (vanished)
Scott (vanished but got burned)
Adam (burned)
What the hell? The ones that take advantage of how nice I am make me mad. The ones that take advantage of other things don't respect me. The ones that do respect me make me lose interest. AHHH! Now since I'm not trying to get over someone per say but opening up options, I'm turning out to be the bad guy when we weren't/aren't even dating or officially anything.

I want:
To go on a date. (dates if applicable)
Snuggle watching tv.
go out with friends with and without the guy.
get drunk with and without.
get phone calls.
get silly sweet emails.
get texts (if they have that ability)
take naps.
get and give back massages.
watch girly movies and scary movies.
be able to count on him.
to be able to be one of the guys.
meet his friends.
have goodnight phone calls sometimes.
have sleepovers.
be ridiculous together.
to be shown off.

I need: (because I'm female)
compliments.
reassurance on different things.
arguments that end up well.
apologies that aren't crap.
to be able to talk about stupid shit and at least have the guy pretend to listen.
have the guy hang on my every word every once in a while.
to feel wanted and needed.
Chocolate and to cry sometimes for no reason.

I hate being the bad guy especially when I'm not in a relationship.
I need and want some flirting. I gotta know the guy is interested. I'm so tired now. I want to just storm out of here and start yelling too. No one would listen. I wouldnt even be able to talk to him. AHHH! Okay! Well I think I got what I needed out and any explanation I wanted to give.